My Boys

I think I need to vent.

So, Tomorrow, I have an appointment for Cole to yet again rehash his constant issues with constipation. This has been going on for a VERY long time. since he was a little baby. a few months old...Little. I have gone to the doctors repeatedly and at 15 Months old a doctor he saw gave him Miralax after I made him an appointment because he SCREAMED for 20 minutes while trying to go #2. He is now 3.5 so that is almost 2 years since the first time they would do anything about it. WHY is it so hard for these doctors to recognize that there is actually SOMETHING wrong and I'm not just blowing smoke up their butts. I am sorry. Yes, I do worry about my Children and their health, but why would I make repeated appointments for the same thing if it was NOTHING?!

The last Practitioner that saw him agreed that there was something wrong and that there is an underlying issue. His diet is pretty okay. he drinks PLENTY of fluids and loves fruits and Veggies and he loves peanut butter, eggs and bread. we try not to give him a lot of sweets but we have been trying to potty train him since last year. and rewarding him with a sugar treat is what motivates him to go. So they wanted me to do a Miralax Flush on him. which is basically you mix 48 Oz of water with 8 Capfuls of Miralax and either he has to drink 4oz every 15 minutes or drink it through the day until he finishes it at night. he "SHOULD" pass whatever is blocking him. Not. I've done the flush 2.5 times. and he is still just as blocked as before.

I am extremely nervous for the appointment tomorrow. because the next "step" to clean him out is not pretty. and I am nervous because no one believes me when I tell them there is something going on with my son and because I know as long as he is stopped up the Peds Gastroenterologist will not see him. and what's discouraging? yeah we may be able to get him in after he's cleaned out and get him screened by the GE nurse but what about by the time the peds GE doctor actually GETS here? which is anywhere from 2-3 months before he visits again and we might be into another episode.

I am also tired. Tired because no doctor has taken me seriously. Tired because I feel horrible for What Cole has to go through and Tired because there is nothing I can really do to help him get relief until the Dr's do something about it. because I have tried EVERYTHING available to me without prescription (with the exception of an Enema) and NOTHING has worked.. I am Just Tired.


I am also tired because I am going through yet another Battle with Lincoln and his foot problems. he has what is called a supinated foot. but the physical therapist thinks the problem stems from inwardly rotated hips and she thinks his tibia is shorter than his right Tibia. and so she will not go on with further treatment until an orthopedist can look at him. and then his referral to the orthopedist mentioned NOTHING of his hips. so maybe I can just TALK to the doctor about it. I've been dealing with THIS issue since LJ was 16 months old, too. I don't know if I just have something on my head that says "don't take her seriously, she's crazy" but I'm starting to think I do. but, not anymore, I am going to DEFINITELY start putting my foot down.

Sorry this seems Jumbled. that's how my life is at the moment. so many things are going on. and I really haven't had the chance to organize everything going on. hence, the long absence from writing and keeping people updated. I do have lots of pictures to post and things like that. just haven't really felt up to posting.

What's new with us.

We have been pretty busy lately, not to mention the medication I'm on has made me pretty antisocial the last few weeks. I still do not feel 100% but I'm getting there, cutting down my dose has definitely helped, it has also helped me lose 2 lbs. people may think that just because I was on Facebook chatting with people and leaving statuses that I am 100% myself because THAT is certainly not true. Michael and I have also had been arguing quite a bit, but that seems to have settled down now.

The last time I posted, I was excited because Michael had bought me a new bedroom set. I love it but the novelty and excitement has worn off since I've been getting bruises the size of lemons because I am not used to the bed frame yet:



yes, I know I am pretty much considered Alabaster in color. I am white as a ghost and unfortunately tanning doesn't help, and I live in Alaska which has more overcast days than it does sunny. so... just sympathize about the bruise and ignore my scary white-ness, ok?

we've also been making lots of yummy things for dinner...

Chicken and Broccli Fettuccine Alfredo:


Salmon, Cantaloupe and Roasted Zucchini and Squash:


Pumpkin Pancakes From Wildtree:


The pancakes are actually pretty delicious especially with Real Maple Syrup. I don't particular like Pumpkin but these are not overpowering in taste at all.

Red Velvet Cupcakes with Ermine Frosting:


The Recipe for the cupcakes came out fine. I think next time I'll use a different Cup cake recipe I found. these are good, they just seemed a little off to me, but the post was for a cake and I'm sure that's maybe why. but the frosting is to die for. and don't worry if you don't have a standing mixer, you just have to beat the finished recipe a little longer to let all that it does come together. because of this I beat the mixture on high until I felt it was light and fluffy enough.


We've even had a Snowstorm on 4/22 and now it's been in the 50's and 60's all this week:




Now Cole and I have been out doing some yard work. he's quite the little helper. I even bought him his own gloves while we're out there. I am hoping Michael's friend can come down and help us cut trees down sometime this summer. I would be SUPER excited about that.

The boys have got some kind of virus and I believe I got it and it's turned into bronchitis, I thought I was losing my voice but I've been trying to stay well hydrated and I had difficulty talking yesterday but I'm doing alright today. which is great. I just cough every ten seconds and had to use my inhaler a few times since last night.

I go in for surgery on my eyes on Monday. I have Chalazion on all of my eyelids and my doctor at my eye exam told me it could be because I am blonde and have very pale Skin and so my skin is just extra sensitive, he also told me I could prevent them from coming back by washing my eyes in the morning and at night and making sure that if I do wear makeup to wash it off really well before I go to bed. so that is happening on Monday so I am definitely nervous.

Michael also goes in for his surgery on tuesday. he has Dequervain's Tendonitis. He cannot wait to get it over with. it is causing him a lot of pain. and I probably will be on hiatus next week after his surgery because I am going to have to be taking care of him and the kids and the dog and the house and the cooking...it is going to be a long ride...

anyways.. I should start getting dinner together.... and so I will leave you all with a recent picture of my two babies:

Easter and other things...

Here are some pictures from our Weekend. I hope you Enjoy Them. I had video, but they didn't come out well at all -Lesslie

Daddy and Cole going ahead of Mommy and Lincoln


Zuri hiking up at the Crevasse Moraine on 4/3. she loved it and did really well on her leash!


The boys are adorable♥


so the Easter bunny visited Later than usual, it was particularly hard to get Cole to bed the night before because we went hiking and they fell asleep in the car on the way home and it threw them all off. Thanks to my Grandmother and my Parents for the kids Gifts.. I really loved the stuff they got, as did the kids :)

Checking out the Loot:



Cole looking at his movie from Grandma and Papa:

Card Games from Nana!:

Going through their baskets:



Lincoln Stuffing a Peep in his mouth as fast as he can!:

Cole testing out a Peep:

My Honey:

Cole hiding behind his new cars:

Lincoln sitting on Daddy's lap saying "No Pictures, Mommy!":

Cole watching 101 Dalmatians:






hanging out with mommy while I was watching the Sox Game:




Cole watching Planet 51:


Lincoln playing with his new cars from the Easter bunny:

Happy 2nd Birthday, Baby Boy!

So my Little man is 2 whole years old today. it seems so unimaginable that I am celebrating his 2nd birthday when it seems like JUST yesterday, Michael and I found out we were pregnant with him and then that we were having him and then celebrating his 1st Birthday. The Changes over the last 2 years are amazing!


Here is Lincoln a few days Old:


Lincoln on his 1 Year Birthday eating Cake:


And by Big boy today!:


I love you sweet little boy...you make mommy so happy!

Random Pictures.

Zuri, 8 Months Old :)

My New Ottoman Bench...

Riding around yesterday...



Lincoln Cuddling with his blanky.

Our Early Birthday Party for Lincoln....

So Michael had to work on Lincoln's Birthday. So we decided to his birthday this morning before Michael Left and here is our Day.


watching mommy Frost Cupcakes.




CAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







He threw himself on the floor because he wanted to follow daddy and I told him to Wait...


Michael is Saying "LOOK, LINCOLN a BIKE!" and he is doing his excited squeal thing LOL.






From Nana and Grumpy! :)




I think this must have been a really like.. it's Scout from leap frog!





a Cars Puzzle

Flicker from Handy Manny


The boys saying goodbye to daddy...


Lincoln Testing out his new Tryke from Grandma and Papa